Goodies for Goodies

I have asked several people from my chat room for some of their goodies that they make, whether it be home made jams/canning, jewelry, or a bull penis cane. I thought I was kind of lame because I didn't have anything I could make to offer them. But I have thought of something I CAN make.
Last year I couldn't find a hat that fit my daughter. So I crocheted her a hat. I call it the bonnet, because it reminds me of the olden days bonnets that women wore. It's a scarf with a hood on it. I have even thought about taking the scarf and using it as the beginnings of a hooded vest, or even a jacket. all crocheted. Considering this is the first bonnet I've made, and the design is all my own (I could not find a design for what I was looking for) I think this came out very well.
If your interested in trading goodies for goodies please email me what colors you would like (some yarns are multicolored like the one on this bonnet). In the subject line please put "Goodies for Goodies" so I do not think that the email is a spam. Anything I make will not be so loose, this was my first project to crochet. My work is much better now. But this is the only bonnet I've made as of yet.

I hope to hear from you all.

Susans Giveaway

My friend Susan is having a blog giveaway, and the candle sounds awesome. Here's the link to her blog, check it out:
 http://sipsfromthefirehydrant.blogspot.com/2010/10/giveaway-time.html

The Stupidity of Broken Women

If you've ever been in a bad relationship you will understand where I am coming from for this post. 
I've always been bad at picking men to be in relationships with. Lazy men who don't have jobs, or take care of their kids, and live with the parents/grandparents. Abusive men, controlling men, immature men who don't stand up and be responsible adults. So then when you meet a man who's perfect, who is a stand up responsible adult, a man who takes care of his kids, and has a home and a car. 
Then when women like me get with a man like this, and we ARE broken, we don't know how to react to the things he does. We start fights and arguments because those are the only kinds of relationships we are used to, and we don't know how to be in a real one. 
So from this broken female to all the other broken females who might possibly read this, don't go down the road I have. Learn from the mistakes of others, love the men who treat you good, don't think that they will do the things the bad men did. Every person is different, and maybe just maybe that new man in your life could be the one who is worthy of you giving your all to them. 
To the man that I'm sure I've done more than his fair share of harming, I'm sorry. I love you, and I hope that maybe we can work things out between us. Hopefully you can forgive me issues and help me work on them.
Shawn, I love you.

Haunt the Zoo

I work 2-11pm all this week, so will be unable to take the babies trick 'r treating. So we took them tonight to Haunt the Zoo: http://www.okczoo.com/ they had a great time. I wish I had gotten more pictures, but it was so busy, kids every where. I thought it was awesome, and so did the kids. Monster enjoyed getting to yell "Trick or Treat" at every one, then saying thank you when they gave her candy, or chips (or even a can of pop). It was so much fun, I wish I could take them again!
I wish Shawn and his kids could have come down and gone with us, it as great!!!!

Halloween

As we are driving down the road at night my daughter sees all the Halloween lights and starts yelling "Christmas, Christmas, presents" No baby it's Halloween "trick 'r treat, trick ' treat" no baby, not yet, its a few more days off. Remember? "trick 'r treat, mama, candy"
Then she goes and pounds on her grampas door "trick 'r treat bop bop" so now he's started keeping candy next to the bedroom door.

I've decided that I have shite taste in men, and that all I was going to worry about was me and my kids. Getting a job, getting my own place, putting my self through school.

Then Shawn came along. A man who tells me every day how beautiful I am, who wants to be with me. Who has custody of 2 of his 4 kids, who supports them, takes care of them. Some one who's a responsible adult, who is willing to wait for me while I get my self and my kids settled down. Some one who's willing to move to be with me, instead of demanding I move to be with him, who does not expect me to support him and his children. He's willing to work hard to help me out, and asks for nothing in return but my love. He is perfect, and I appreciate him more than words can say. He means more to me than I can explain. He's my friend, and hopefully will be my lover and more when I am ready. 
Shawn I love you, and I appreciate how your willing to wait, and are not trying to rush me, how you treat me, and the things you do for me and my kids. I already love your kids, and look forward to getting to really know them as well!

Storms

Today I feel like my life is in a storm. I hope the eye of the storm passes over head soon. And that made me think of some storm pictures I had (as well as Shawn my dear heart who makes me laugh and smile every day)

Work

Today was a good day at work. They put me in the Return area. Second day on the floor and I'm being moved around. I like it though. I'm learning all kinds of different things. And I really like the people I've been put with to be trained. They are all so nice. They've already invited me to a girls night out. Dinner, movie, and drinks at one of their houses. Now all I need to do is find a baby sitter. 
I'm working hard, and taking care of the babies. The life of a parent, eh?
I can't wait to get my own place. I need a place for me and the babies to just be alone. No parents, not their father. 
I hope things work out for us, one way or the other.

My photography

I'm not as talented as a lot of my friends. But I thought I would show those who are interested in the things that DO interest me. Below will be pictures that I have taken over the last few years. The flowers are from a park in Oklahoma City: http://www.myriadgardens.com/index.html
I hope every one enjoys.

Hi My names CupCake and this is my blog. I hope any of you that read this understand my thoughts. I've started this to put down what I think and feel.
I've been going through relationship after relationship.
I've left my last boyfriend because I found out he was keeping another family on the side. Offering to get her a house, and take care of her and her kids, the exact same thing as what he had been offering me. He talked to her about wanting to be with her and another couple, and with another women, and taking her to a swinger club. All the things he had been talking to me about.
I've decided that taking care of my kids and my self is more important to me than any relationships I have had or might have. So I've started a new job, and hope to find a new place to live and get out of my parents place (again).
My children are the most important thing in my life, and always will be. And whomever I get together with whether friends or more should know that.